I wish I could be more than I ever was...I wish I never swore and I never cursed want heaven trust 
...I wish this drank had much better buzz...same with my music shit...but I'ma slave to the pain and the voices say that its lucrative... 
but if I'm real I ain't doing shit...or I ain't using it to its full potential...same when I work...why I refuse to quit... 
I'm tired of spending nights wondering how i'm Keeping the lights on 
how i'm getting the mice gone...need for soap and this right guard... 
tired of praying to this white god...black or asian its my god... 
and he ain't answering and i'm feeling i'm worthless thinking am I wrong... 
questioning my existence...wondering is it something missing... 
Or am I just phucking different...placed the signs did I jump n miss it... 
I ain't want to just sit...living feeling i'm selfish... 
I ain't distant i'm selfless you just never remember... 
I won't get it together been through many decembers... 
gifts aren't moments of presents...since I sit in the present... 
my vocal gift is my presence... 
but yall just want another anger management... 
I ain't drinking hard no more I found a way to manage it... 
the angers entertaining I'ma work to my advantage when... 
I feel so lonely when loving... 
I'm lonely only in public...when i'm speaking i'm covered... 
i'm bleeding recover...ain't needing no other but mother may give you hugs cuz I want you to understand me... 
more than I do...so when I ask you why I feel odd... 
you will have the answer to something... 
but...i'm just thinking...